A Book of Questions

These past few days various emotions have emerged. Its a mixture of both my feelings and of those around me which have made me take a closer look at things going on in my life that i havnt taken the time to look at.  I was told yesterday, "Megan, you give good advice." I realized that I give advice more for myself, than for the person that im telling it to. I feel like there are life lessons in every challenge we face. Little do they know im stealing their tragedy/predicament/situation and jotting them down as my own to go back and read.

There are a couple things that have had me thinking for the past several days, and I think its because they are questions and thoughts that make me go back and forth between my heart and my mind, which for me, never agree when I apply it to my own life. 

"how do you make yourself stop liking someone", I was asked.  This is a question I wish I could answer and have it make sense. 

You cant help who you like.

 Thats the bottom line.

  If you have to ask yourself this question, evidently there is a reason why you shouldn't like them in the first place. If you keep reminding yourself of the reasons  you shouldn't like them, is this just a way to distract your feelings in order for you to get over the person? which makes me wonder do you ever truely get over someone or do you just keep lying to yourself until you  believe it yourself? 

Sometimes your told that person just isnt good for you. This is a statement that I believe to be true at times. But if this is true why is it that our heat is so drawn to this person? We know ourselves better than anyone, so why would we let ourselves go through this pain? 

we all do it. 

some just hide it better than others.  

"she thinks I put relationships on a pedestal and look at it like a marriage" 

When I was told this I completely disagreed. As I sit and think about it no,  im not really sure what I think. 

You are supposed to go into a relationship for the appropriate reasons. Right? Your supposed to go into a relationship thinking that this is going to last. Being able to see yourself eventually loving this person. Right? But everyone isnt perfect, so your never going to find your Mr/Mrs.Perfect, which means your forced to go into a relationship expecting things to go wrong, one of which could be from the key questions. Soooo...... when do you know its time for a relationship? Your just supposed to know? How do you know this is a bad idea? You  just go with it? 

Still learning 

xoxo